Dropping Him Like A Hot Potato

My Ex has a tendency to become very dependent on me. Not the type of attitude I like especially for a guy like him. Must be the reason why in the very first place we did not make it as a couple. We turned out to be being civil again and it seems like his attitude is there AGAIN… so I must get rid of it or HIM before I put myself in the kind of situation I have been through before. I know its not good to talk about a person you’ve had been with, but I cant help it but sometimes its better to just avoid him for now.

Gaga Over Gossip

Just finished watching the first season of Gossip Girl. I must admit it attracted me in a way that it’s all a web of relationships… complexities, simplicities and the gossip that keeps on pouring in and out. What I like most? The mysterious Gossip Girl – Who is She?

What Blogging Means To Me

I did set up my blog site because I love to be able to personally lay down the cards once and for all when I feel like doing it. Sometimes, the thought of posting anything that matters to me is such a relief since I’m known to be the silent type of person. I just love doing it. Period. Then, I have come to realize that there are a lot of possibilities that you can earn from what you’re doing. Something like going commercial. I did sign up for some blogging portals where you can earn at the same time and do what you love to do. This is a very beneficial gateway. I was already accepted ( some have been rejected) but I don’t know what’s gotten on to me that I cant just submit my links to start off a new line of blogging path. Maybe I’m not just ready to give up that personal touch that is unique in a blog. I wanted the contents to remain personal. All of it. And so I was thinking that If I’ll go for the business thing, I’d rather set up another blog site. Am I doing the right thing? Hopefully I am. But we are entitled to change our decisions right? So which is which now for me? Duh… another confusing moment!

I'm Into Poetry

I have signed up for an online writing portal because I wanted to be able to share my ideas and submit literary pieces that evolved in my imagination (LOL). I’m sure I’m not a good poet but I was so happy upon receiving news that my articles are to be published. Anyways, I’m posting the links where you can read my poems.

1. http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/My-Eyes-Seek-for-You.172965
2. http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/Letting-You-Go.172909
3. http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/No-One-But-Myself.168361
4. http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/Unforgiven-Love.167069
5.http://www.authspot.com/Poetry/Loves-Definitions.172915

Alrose's Way on TOP

She’s fashionable, a chic, funny, humorous . She’s my friend and she made it! Congrats Alrose for being our new in team trainer! You deserve it and way to go girl!!

GirlBoy Part IV

We have arguments and most of the time the day doesn’t end without us resolving the conflict. That’s how we handle the relationship. Lately he’s been talking about a certain girl he had a crush on. They just live near each other but that fact doesn’t worry me at all. I’m not the jealous type and I trust him completely. I know he’s not going to hurt me. We’ve just been together for a couple of months and we know we have a strong relationship. One night we had a terrible fight over our schedules because we have both been very busy and It was not a good time to converse after a long tiring day. We parted ways not feeling good about each other at all. I needed space.

Missing My Friends.. Again

I have been missing my friends for a couple of weeks right now. Due to some changes in schedules, promotions, etc. I begin to look for them. We don’t go together anymore as often as we can. Thank God Wena and I have been spending some bonding sessions these past few days, one was when we met at Starbucks for some chit chatting and online duties and just this afternoon after we went together to Ayala to watch the movie Dark Knight which I have been dying to see. A leatst I still have one friend in the office to talk to whenever and wherever. Alrose, Jen, Wena and I are planning to get together sometime next month and I’m hoping it will push through. Anyways to sum up all of this, all I just want to say is I miss you guys! Let’s kip in touch.

GirlBoy Part III

Relieved. That’s the right description. I went ahead for uncertainty but I didn’t regret it. I’m a risk taker, but so far all is well and I feel so very much in love. Nothing can surpass what I felt that time. He’s been great and I realized what a wonderful person he is. I feel that I’m so contented with my life although lately my friends have been complaining of not going out with them anymore, that I’ve become an anti-social. Once in a while I thought about my ex and the painful goodbye we bid to each other but I feel that I’m so in love and that moment that was the most important thing ever. I do have responsibilities, but I have begun to neglect it out of my need to be with him. We were both attention seekers, and he needs me to be with him all the time and likewise. It’s a crazy love. We were both crazy. In fact, I agree until now that my being so in love could be the one thing that will have almost destroyed me.

Summer in Camotes

All work and no play makes Juan a dull boy. So to better speak, we work out as a team; we go out as a team. The place: Camotes Island, a beautiful place to relax, enjoy, and better yet to be in the company of people in the office outside of work. We boarded some sea craft on our way to Camotes and we traveled for around 30-45 minutes where we will stay overnight in Santiago Bay Resort. We went to as far as Mangodlom were we enjoyed the fantastic view, white sand and of course the beach.Mangodlom has a pool nearby the beach so if you feel like not coming to the salt water, you can just enjoy and dip in the pool there. But for us we both went salty and fresh! The escapade doesn’t just end there. We went for some videoke galore during the night. Overall, I find the whole trip fun and exciting. This has been my second time here in Camotes but I must admit that the place never fails to bring happy memories.

GirlBoy PartII

It happened so fast and before I knew I have fallen in love with him. He was somebody who was always there for me all the time and most of all he was just near me. That’s what I needed. Presence. Long before we knew we became inseparable. It’s just simple. I have fallen in love with somebody else. Someone else not you. I knew I hurt him with those words but there’s no point in lying. It’s now or never. I wished him well and hoped I could escape the scene that I’m into. For a moment we hugged each other and I said I’m sorry. For the first time in 6 years, I said goodbye to him.

Little Lester

He’s almost two years old and he’s becoming bigger and bigger every day. This is my cute little nephew and let me show his pictures that I took since he came and lit up our lives. That face just reminds me of my sister. She smiles exactly the way little Lester smiles too.Although this Kido won't go near me because he seldom sees his tita, I make sure I bribe him with things he wants to get so I can cuddle to him... nice idea.

Wave Eight

This was held during our First Year Anniversary as a Wave. This was our group picture taken by Griz’s boyfriend Ronald when he went with us during our get together in Patio Isabel. Everyone except Jen and Ben were there to enjoy and eat out. Jen couldn’t come that time because a family member died, and I’m not so sure where Ben was at that time also. I remembered well how we started as agents in the floor. We are the 8th wave to hit production. These were the people I have first met beginning my career life and these are the same people whom I have become close until this day. Of course, there have been changes in the group so far, some were promoted, some went to a greener pasture and some remained loyal agents including me of course! Well, I got amazed with this pix because Jen and Ben were suddenly there ( it’s not obvious eh?) So, who could be the photo editor?
No one else but Francis… hehehe.
(front row left to right: noel, kim, me, aisah,wena, ben)
(back row left-right: Francis, Herbie, Niko, Jake, Griz, Jen)

GirlBoy Part I

I know I have to finish what I came here for. I spent one sleepless night thinking about the perfect words to say, with conviction…without any hesitation. I’ve traveled how many kilometers just to realize my plan. It’s not going to be easy but I have to do it. My happiness is his loss and I feel like I’m the most selfish person alive. But I have to do it. I know I can. Somebody promised me. He would love me forever. And I know deep inside me I would just do anything for him. And so he told me if I love him I should let the other one go and we’ll start a new life together, full of love joy and companionship. And I’m doing right now exactly what he wanted. I’m doing this for him. I’m doing this for love. Ahh.. Love. It’s a crazy feeling. Makes the wrong seem right, leaves you numb, makes you want more. Makes you feel everything that you don’t imagine you could ever be. And so I patiently waited for him in his board house. I know he’s coming, I don’t know but the thought of It left my hands cold… and warm... and now its sweating. Somehow it feels the tension it’s going to face, and then I saw him. That handsome face which haunted me for a couple of years. The one I thought who would keep my heart beating forever. Until now. He was surprised when he saw me. I thought I saw in a glance a hint of longing in his eyes but that suddenly disappeared and what replaced it was a cold stare and for a for the moment I thought I knew well what I’m going to say. But looking at his sad eyes made me hesitate for a moment. “I waited for you for hours to meet me in your dormitory”. He said. What happened? I know I should spill out everything already. The time has come. I decided not to see you anymore. Was what I responded. I would like to see you that day you came unexpectedly in our school but what you didn’t know then was that I was with somebody else. I couldn’t face you that time because I’m afraid, to tell you everything…. “Is it that difficult for you to say you don’t love me anymore?” He snapped. I couldn’t utter a word. “If you’re having a hard time leaving me that means you’re not yet ready to let go of me.” “That you still love me. I couldn’t understand him. Here I am facing the guy I’ve come to love since I was 12, ready to break his heart. I’m a heartbreaker, a villain, a selfish woman, but yet he’s still hoping that this is something we could s till fix, that we could just forget that this ever happened. I expected anger and hatred from him because I have been unfaithful and I hated him for that because I was not prepared to respond to his consideration and plea. I expected him to burst out and tell me I’m the worst person he has ever met. But instead the opposite happened. That’s when I knew, I couldn’t take it anymore, he doesn’t deserve me and I don’t deserve him more. He deserves someone else. Why? Was all he asked. Was my love not enough for you? I was about to tell him its not because of him or anthing else. But I was taken aback when I saw tears in his eyes.

To be continued…..

Am I or Am I Not? Excerpt from my Journal

I went to a clinic last Tuesday to consult to a doctor about my irregular menstruation. I haven’t gotten my period yet for almost three months and its beginning to worry me. I thought I was pregnant. So after long months of worry and pregnancy tests used up (which showed up negative) I went to a gynecologist and told her about my situation. It’s my very first time to have myself checked up by a gynecologist. Thank God she’s a SHE so it didn’t leave me so conscious. My doctor carefully checked what needs to be done and it came out I wasn’t pregnant at all. I might be having some hormonal imbalance so she recommended a medicine to take for 10 days and after 10 days of taking it up I should have my menstruation by then. If not, I should go back to her and we’ll see what other tests we can do so we would know what’s up with my body right now. I’m kind of scared but she said lets cross the bridge when we get there. Should I not worry? It’s scaring the hell out of me.

Thumbs Up for Juno

I watched Juno last night and the movie was awesome. I didn’t expect pregnancy to be that cool for Juno and I just love the superb acting of Ellen Paige. No wonder she’s been nominated for Best Actress in this film. For those who don’t know what I’m talking about, Juno is a story of a teenage girl who discovered one summer that she’s pregnant with Bleeker’s ( the baby’s father) child. Of course, they are too young to handle the situation so Juno finds herself searching for a couple who could adopt her child as soon as she delivers the baby. Along the way she discovers a lot about her self and the realization she encountered . I recommend the movie because of its fantastic script and intelligent approach minus the drama. Watch it.

Blogging Mania

I guess this is it. What’s not to like about blogging? You have the freedom to say anything you want to say, express whatever feelings you have in mind and simply talk about anything under the sun. What’s cool is that a lot of my officemates are already into blogging right now and it’s the coolest gig in the floor. Want to join? Why not? Scribble right now!

Back to Normal

After more than two years of being in the night shift, I’m suddenly moved to the day shift… At last! I never even thought that our request would be approved this quickly so I want to thank my manager Pia, for working on it. Thanks Pi! I admit that I have come to like working on the night shift, simply because, for call center agents like us, this is our normal day. This is my second day on a day shift and I’m still getting used to the routine. I now go out in the busy streets during the morning and its even more traffic than it is in the night. I well assume that’s going to be like that anyway. I now wake up at 6:30am which is my usual time to go to sleep after I come home from work. It might take me a few weeks to get used to this scenario; Anyway, I’m glad I’m back to normal. =)