Frank the Culprit

Typhoon Frank has left an indelible mark on me because our house was partly destroyed. The tree in our backyard could not withstand the strong winds and its heavy trunk rested just right the rooftop destroying a portion of our wall and the ceiling.Heavy work has to be done just to get the trunk out of the scene.And considering the cost of house materials these days! Its good thing that my sister who was in the house the time the tree was uprooted was in our living room or else she could have been hurt of the incident.My sister was the one who provided me with the details of the destruction and such.Right now our place is like a ghost town with no access to water and electricity.It might take a while before things go back to normal.

Me when I'm Angry

I don't get mad that often, well at least depending on the situation. The best that somebody can do for me when I'm mad is to leave me alone. My madness equals silence. That's it. The more will I be annoyed when somebody is trying to make amends with me when I'm still mad. I reason out at my own self when I'm alone and I begin to think if what I did was the appropriate behavior. It does take time for me to convince myself that there's no point prolonging the madness. Then my anger leads me to an emotional state, and tears begin to fall. After I shed away the tears, the feeling becomes good again.

Joke

I’m not a joker. I’m a corny joker if I happen to be one. Imagine those many times I played fun but people still took it as a serious thing. See? I’m a lousy joker. But I love jokes. Really. It makes my day light. There are times when I hate it though. It could sometimes be mistaken as a way of telling the truth which I don’t really approve of. The only thing that I hate this thing If its being used as a personal attack to somebody. That doesn’t become a good joke.

Cosmopolitan

For a year now, I have religiously kept monthly issues of Cosmopolitan.
I make sure that I reserve an amount out of my salary to purchase these

issues. Something in me gets this feeling that I feel updated and aware of

social happenings. The magazine is all about women empowerment to the
latest fashion trends, hairstyles, news in and out of the country. Its addictive

for me. Being an independent woman that I am, I make sure I realize goals

not base on what others think as what I should do but me myself thinking what's best that I can do for my own. Although the magazine tackles also about issues concerning on sex, relationships I don't feel it like flooding my mind with things that are unconventional. The magazine itself is informative and thus it brings awareness. So with almost a year and a half of buying Cosmo that I'm pretty sure is a ton of information I can preserve in my nut. =)

Quite Surprise

I did not realize until I was about to log in for work that my schedule has changed.
For almost a month now, I have been following a very early schedule of 6pm until 3am.
I was in fact an hour and a half ahead of time. Well, I’m never really an early bird
And I always log in right before or sometimes late before my punch in time and so It feels
A little bit weird to be this early in the office doing nothing. Because I arrived so hungry in the Office I was very glad to have taken enough time to go to the pantry and eat dinner. I just spent the Whole day sleeping and it was too late for me to grab something to eat. Hmmm… speaking aboutUnhealthy lifestyle. =(

Loving Mom

My mom has been here in Cebu since last week and I love that she has
decided to stay for a few more days. Just the mere sight of her makes me feel
contented and secure and I can't tell her to stay with me longer because I may cause
A drama scene. And so we did things together and we bonded again. We went to the

mall and watched movies and ate and chatted and sigh*; I've never felt this happy before. There's something in her that I miss all the time and that's the comfort and care only a mother can give. It makes me want to be with her always... wanting be within her reach. We went to an optical clinic and had her eyes checked. She's been wanting to wear glasses since her eyesight has been affected because of Diabetes. and now she's got this new pair of glasses which makes her happy because at last she's able to see clearly The things she has been missing for quite a while. Seeing her happy is double happiness for me =)

Hating Math

I definitely hate the subject and I want to delete it in my mind forever.
Its hard to deal with it but its even harder without it, so I guess I have to live with the fact
That I was born with no love for equations and the like. I can only master basic equations but
The rest is not history but absolute nothingness for me.
I never got a grade of 85 plus ever since high school and at some point I tried my very best and
Diligently studied the subject but I guess my patience is my enemy because I easily give up.
After a lot of retakes and more failed than passes I just realized that this is it. I'm super dumb when I talk about this subject.
I do understand that the world rotates around figures and that Money is Math.
But please, I really do hope one time my mind will lighten up or somebody can lighten it up
For me before it's too late. Wink!

Typhoon

I wish the weather would be fine. The wind is so strong that I couldn't imagine
Where the rage came from. Cebu is set to signal no. 2 (unsure) and I was worried
Because of the inconvenience this will give us as well as to people in some other places
who are greatly affected by the typhoon. I haven't had my clothes washed yet by Ate Marivic
(She washes my clothes) because it wont surely dry. So I was hoping for a tiny bit of hope that
sunshine will rise tomorrow and things will be back to normal then.
I'm running out of casual clothes to wear in the office, It's a good thing we're dress down for the
Month of June. Good thing.

Minus Multiply

I woke up two days ago and realized I need to get rid of my multiply account.
I feel better knowing I only have a few sites to maintain and visit and update….
I just want to maintain my Friendster account and my Blogger of course which is the
Haven of my thoughts. Two days because I still had second thoughts of getting rid of it
But now I’m more than determined to totally delete it.
So just a few clicks and my multiply’s going to be deleted.

A kiss

“A kiss is designed by nature to stop speech when words become superfluous."

-ingrid bergman


I had my first kiss from my ex boyfriend. It was a short kiss but it was followed by a long and passionate one.
Though my hands are cold and my heart was trembling like hell, it managed to be a good kiss.
It happened on a date, on a starry night where I just turned 17. For me, it was the most innocent act ever.
Amidst the worry that I might get pregnant on a first kiss. Education taught me it doesn’t happen that way.
And that was a relief. That boy who gave me my first kiss turned out to be my boyfriend for almost 7 years.
Kisses give us that numb feeling. It connects our actions to what we feel and it feels great. Do you agree?

Missing my College Friends

It’s hard not to miss my college pals. After all, we have been together for a couple of years.We grew up together and had our fair share of ups and downs. It’s sad that we don’t ever get to eat out together, have fun and go strolling along the seashores. I miss my friends Jan and Kath.We shared the same house when were already graduating. Its during those times that our friendship blossomed and so many weird and frightful things happened. But we surpassed it all, and we ended
up okay. Jan is already in Manila and she works for EBay. Kath on the other hand is here in Cebu but we never get to see each other even though we’re just in the same place because of schedules.I may feel alienated but I couldn’t hide the fact that I truly miss my dear friends.

Declaration

I rarely talk about my boyfriend. Perhaps because I know he’s a very private person and
I still think that whatever we share to each other, we share it among ourselves. But this is not a page of revelation but rather a page of declaration. For the one person who took care of me when I’m all alone. Who forgave me when I have been crazy enough to almost break our relationship. Who doesn’t nag me (anymore) if I don’t clean my feet before hopping to bed, Who accepts me for who I am and what I have become Who loves me truly. For being the ever patient one. Honey, this may seem so short but you know what I mean. And this page for you is still never enough..
=hugs&kisses=

Living with "It"

Meredith ( greys anatomy) said that its better to have someone, even if it hurts, even if it’s the most painful thing you’ve
Ever have to do. Its better still to have someone. Do you agree? I think so… he he I mean its crazy because you have to
endure a lot but its part of “it” right? No matter how much you’re not gonna want that person, you can only say that right at that very moment.
But truth is you just don’t care as long as you stick together for what’s the matter like. In good and bad times.
Nah… just woke up this morning feling like a little hopless romantic.
And by the way.. Happy father’s day to all paps out there!!

Moving On

It’s high time that I move on. Not because I have to. But he has already.
For sometime he has been occupying my mind and it has given me
restless nights thinking how I ended up something I don’t want to end.
I feel stupid at most crazy. It’s making me sick and it drives me into nothingness.
I feel I’m the most selfish person in the world. I should have done this long before.
I should have let go. But I was afraid to be alone feeling this feeling.
I need someone to share this to even if its not supposed to be.
Even if it’s not meant to be.
I have been unfair but I kept it to myself. I don’t want to make things worse.
There would be someone who will be most affected. I can't bear that.
I need somebody to understand me and tell me how to get rid of this
Before it destructs me, before it ruins me.
But he has moved on long before I realize.
And now I’m alone, feeling this feeling.
Bitter. Lonely. Helpless.

So Called Relationships..

I always love to talk about relationships. I want to know how other relationships work aside from what I have. I admit I am not a good partner. Sometimes I feel, that I have disregarded the persons who have given me true love and devotion.I admit I was not happy choosing decisions I know I would regret and still in the phase of regretting.I still choose my mind over my heart and not just once did it leave me wounded.But I have too. There’s something in me that doesn’t approve of giving your entire self for a relationship.And I’m quite confused because they said loving is giving out your all. At any costs.There is a thin line between giving your best but at the same time that you’re in love And giving not the hundred percent but still in love.There have been a lot of instances that we are aware of how love can be most powerful and how it can be the most dangerous.Depends on how you use it.

A Disregarded Passion

I dreamt of being a teacher when I was a kid.
I would use to gather younger kids around our neighborhood and teach them.
I used to teach them under the shade of a tree but soon enough we found an isolated house
In a neighborhood, and that’s were we made it into a classroom with all the benches and walls to use as a board.
I taught by heart and that made me realize that when I grow up, I would want to get the noblest job of all.
Times passed, influences came and dreams seem to surmount with all the things life can offer.
I was bombarded with all the nice things that I would want to be and would like to do.
I forgot that I wanted to become a teacher.
I was told I was good in compositions and I was articulate.
Thanks to the fine education my parents gave me we wee exposed in a place where education is given at its finest
I grew up fond of watching news and current events and was amazed how newscasters and the media overall could be
A very powerful instrument in shaping up the society. I had this passion for writing and delivering news.
I was assigned as the editor in chief in our school publication and this was I realized I have the potential of being in the media industry.
I disregarded my mother’s request to become a nurse simply because I feel I can’t be what she wants me to be. I can be me with my own freewill.
I took up Development Communication and majored in Broadcasting. But college life is not easy as it seems to be. I know most of you will agree with me on that.
Somehow, freedom can make you go crazy and can lead you to temptations. That’s of course in your own discretion.
Right now, I’m working as a customer representative. I love the job because it fulfills me.
But I still have that one passion left in my heart. Something I know in time I’m going to do.
Something I believe would totally complete me.
Something I would like to consider doing even if I’m already old.
Something that’s still in my heart.
The passion for Teaching.

Self Treat

I decided last Tuesday to treat myself by going to the mall alone and go window shopping.
Actually. I was also excited to watch a movie and was torn between watching Caregiver by Sharon Cuneta
And Sex and the City. Well, I choose to watch Sex and the City because I’m just thrilled of how it’s going to make my day light
I don’t want to cry and I know a hundred percent that I’m going to cry watching Caregiver.
I bought Bavarian which is my “baon” inside the theater and was kind of 10 minutes late. Hehe
I was never a fan of Sarah Jessica Parker and didn’t know anything about how sex and the city goes.
I wasn’t able to watch the sitcom but I heard something that made me want to watch the movie.
Designer clothes, shoes, elegant apartments, high profile jobs….. Every girl’s wish
And I did not go home disappointed. The movie I think was very humorous and I can’t just help it but I laughed all by myself!
It was a very enjoyable moment for me.

Elyn and My Vacation

My friend Elyn told me my page here is kind of bright.
Screen properties perhaps might have affected the way my blog is being read by my devoted friend.
It look s fine in my computer but she said it’s too bright.
Anyways, I decided then again to change my theme. Something that’s more pleasant to the eyes.
Ellyn’s got that big influence in me.
I had been through almost a week long’s rest and I went home to Ormoc because its fiesta time.
I can’t tell you how drunk I was during the disco night that I totally forgot how I got home.
Geez. Alcohol and its effect on me. I could have been a drunkard if not for my skills to get drunk after
5 shots of whiskey. I danced the night away and met with friends whom I have not seen for quite a while.
Everything’s been fine since I left home but my nephew still won’t go near me. Hehe
Fiesta came and we had a sumptuous feast. The food and all is taking a toll on me. Hehe
I feel so full all the time.
We went to the beach the next day to relax and enjoy the summer heat.
Well, summer yeah… I’ve earned sunburn but I loved it.
Nice vacation.

The Filipino Way

Filipino families are known to have close family ties. We still get in touch with our immediate families even though children and have raised also one of their own. We not only remain closely bonded by our immediate families but we also are open to the possibilities of living even with our extended relatives like our grandfathers, grandmothers, aunts, uncles, cousins and even distant relatives In such a way, this has allowed us to establish a close relationship with our family members. From childhood to adulthood; children depend mostly from their parents in almost all aspects of their lives. They are our first teachers and we learn from them first the do’s and don’ts. Our parents guide us in almost everything that we do in especially in molding our values as a person. Like most families we focus in building respect for one another. It has been our tradition to follow our parents and respect their decisions which they think would be the best thing for us to do. We look up to our parents like role models and what we become when we grow up is largely dependent of how they managed to handle us in a way that they become the major influence in our lives. That’s why as soon as we become adults, we feel that we owe to them much of the responsibility of taking care of them in return for what they have done to us.
Filipinos, who are closely tied in nature also brings out one of the best traits we are known for and that’s the trait of hospitality. We welcome with gratitude anybody who comes in to our place and give them the best possible treatment we can give to make our visitors comfortable during their stay. We treat our guests with utmost care and importance. Our rich culture and tradition brings about important and lively festivities. During these times we also get to see distant relatives gathered to celebrate important functions in the society. We have fiestas conducted annually to honor our patron saints which vary for every place in the Philippines. This remains as one of the most colorful and celebrated happenings in our society. Everybody is invited complete with a sumptous feast and warmest welcome. There are a lot of Filipino traits that we can be proud of. Some have been practiced since by our ancestors and has been passed on to generations. We live in a way where we value ourselves and the people around us. This is what we call the bayanihan spirit, it’s a way of ensuring that you can get help when you need it which results in companionship among others.We work hard but we don’t forget to take things lightly no matter how hard its affecting us. We have a great workforce evident by existing Filipino workers from all over the world who give various services, and this gives us a sense of pride. For ones capability and skills to be recognized offshore is a n achievement not only of that Filipino individual but with the whole country as well. We have a soft spot for our families. We were brought up nurtured with love and care from our parents and they have alsoprovided us with education that we need, something that our parents say is a gift that nobody can steal from us; and its true. We were taught to value education because it is the only thing that would guarantee as with a bright future.